Gratitude Challenge Day 4: A Family Member

The challenge today is to show gratitude towards a family member. The family member I am most grateful for is my paternal grandmother. She has been there for me when ever I have needed her. She has been there for me for as long as I can remember. She has helped me financially, emotionally, and with just about anything I have ever needed. Even if I was being hard on myself, she encouraged me to be the best I can be. If I got down she would pull me right back up. I would be lost without this woman!

Gratitude Challenge Day 3: Family

The challenge for the third day is to write about my family. I am definitely grateful for my family. I would not be who I am today without them! They continue to inspire me to be the best I can be even if I just feel like giving up. When things go wrong, I know that they have my back. Yeah, we may be a little dysfunctional and strange, but then again, what family isn’t? I have learned so much from my family over the last 22 years. I learned that no matter what, I will always have someone who loves me. I know that I will always have some one to tell me like it is even if it is the last thing I want to hear. I know that they’ll always pick me up when I fall. I definitely would not be the person I am today without their love and support. Yeah, from time to time, they my be annoying little jerks, but their my annoying little jerks, and I love them!

Day 2 of Gratitude Challenge: Spouse/ Significant Other

The challenge for today is to talk about your spouse or significant other. Well, I could talk about him forever. His name is Jason. We have been dating for almost 5 months. He has turned my world completely upside down. I thought that I would never find someone who would love me for the person I am, but he does. He treats me with so much respect. In our relationship, we;re each others’ equals. No one wears the pants in our relationship. He keeps me smiling and happy one hundred percent of the time, and I could not be more grateful. He is one of the most caring and sensitive guys that I have ever met. He isn’t afraid to show me his feelings. We are both there for one another to vent, and we tell each other what we need to hear. People say love at first sight isn’t real, but I can assure you that it really is. I fell in love with him from the start. This is definitely a man who deserves my gratitude! I love him so much.

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Love is an Open Door

   If you actively follow me, then you know that I don’t have a very strong relationship history. However, my streak of luck has seemed to change(knock on wood). Yesterday, I had the best date of my life.

   So I have the app, Tinder. I really wasn’t expecting to get anything out of it because my past experience with those kinds of things. Well, one night about three weeks ago, I swiped right on this guy. I thought it would be another conversation that never began. However, later that night, I get a message from him. We began to talk, and continued to get to know each other. I found out that he went to a college about six hours away from me, and that when we were home from school that we lived about twenty minutes or so away from each other. However, he is spending is summer doing research at his college. At that point, I doubted that we would ever meet. Also I live with my grandparents. So, I was afraid of explaining a date to them.  I got over that fear, and about three days ago, I asked him when he was going to be coming home next. He responded by saying, ” This weekend if I have a good reason too. ;)”. I then proceeded to tell him that I changed my mind about seeing him, and we made plans to meet yesterday.

    He started giving me all these ideas of things we could do. Our original plan consisted of going bowling, a nice dinner, and the movies. However, we decided that wasn’t long enough. So here’s how the night played out:

      He texted me and asked if I wanted to add lunch of our things to do. I agreed. I sat there waiting, and the butterflies were going crazy. When he picked me up, we had the normal awkward time like every other first date. However, unlike most, it lasted thirty seconds. We went to Steak N’ Shake and  had lunch. Then,we went bowling, and I failed the first two games, and we tied the third. We spent the entire time laughing and joking around. After bowling we went to dinner at Joe’s Crab Shack, which happen to the favorite restaurant for both us. We ate a delicious crab dinner. Then we went to the movies. However, our movie didn’t start for another hour or so. Then we sat and people watched. He grabbed my hand while we were sitting there(with a tiny bit of persuasion). From then on, we spent the whole night holding hands. During the movie, we sat there with our hands intertwined. We left the movies, and decided that neither of us were ready to leave. So, we went down to Main Street and went bar hopping. We had a few drinks, talked, took a selfie. We went down to the riverside and talked under the stars: his arm wrapped around me, and my head on his shoulder. I felt safe, happy, and comfortable. He played with my hair( which is my weakness). We had to go to the bathroom, and the public bathrooms were locked so we went into another bar on main street, and decided that we wanted a milkshake. So, we went to back to Steak N’ Shake, and had a milkshake and spent about an hour there talking. We went back down to the river, and found another spot to sit, and we sat there and talked more. Soon, he put his thumb under my chin. We kissed for awhile, and then talked a little more. Before we left, he asked if he could steal another kiss. So, I let him. We sat there for a few minutes before getting up. We got in the car, and held hands all the way home. He dropped me of at 2 AM and walked me to the front door. We kissed goodnight, knowing that due to our extremely busy college lives, it would be a little while before we saw each other again. However, we knew we were going to see each other soon. It was seriously an amazing night, and I couldn’t have asked for a better night. I get butterflies just thinking about it.

 

“People Aren’t Against You; They’re for Themselves.”

I came across this  quote today, and it hit me like a bus. I have this theory that the entire world is against me. I feel that even when I am not doing anything wrong, I am still disappointing my parents.  I feel that when I make even a small mistake, I am letting the whole world down. When I fight with a friend, I feel like I am going to lose them. I  have even considered quitting my sorority because I thought all of my sisters hated me. When  I first saw this quote, it reminded me that I was wrong. I was reminded that even if they are against me, that’s okay. We are in a world where everyone is trying to get to the top. We live in an extremely self-oriented society. Even my post is pretty selfish. I realized I have to love myself before I can expect someone else to. When I am hard on myself, I am giving other people the license to be hard on me too. I know that I do have people who care about me.  Most of them are the ones I thought were against me.

I know I may not know you, but I want to remind you that you’re an amazing, beautiful person. You are loved.  I love that you’re existing in the same word as me

-Lots of Love-

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